Wednesday May 9th, 2012

"Pick the day. Enjoy it - to the hilt. The day as it comes. People as they come... The past, I think, has helped me appreciate the present - and I don't want to spoil any of it by fretting about the future."
Audrey Hepburn



On Friday, I will be finished with my freshman year of college. Is it exiting? Yes! However, that excitement comes in whorls of bitter sweet expectation of the future. I reminisce on this year; as I walked into class, the first day, would I know that I would leave this place completely changed from the woman that I was? I have grown up... not completely, for I still have so much to learn and recognize my ignorance; but I have grown from who I was. I feel older. Its scary almost, that time is not a gentleman. He is not chival in any way. He runs forward, regardless of your pleads and cries for him to slow down. The sun rises and then it sets, and you become older with each hour, and time races on. 

 I think about the present; today; what I feel, what I will do the rest of the day. Then I think about the future- I get lost in my thoughts of the future. The past is what we have experienced, the present is what we know...but the future? The future is unknown; full of new experiences and events...that is what is frightening about the future...its mystery.

As we move forward it is so easy to stop, to freeze in fear of what lies around the corner...but this is the moment, the time, which separates the timid from the strong. Our entire lives have been building up to this point, this point of vulnerability, this point in which our world shifts and changes; in which we are given the chance to take opportunities which might change our lives. Life comes in winds like seasons. It is a book, whose pages are turned by a hand not our own. Chapters end, and others begin. Love is lost and love is gained. We experience joy and we mourn. Perhaps... perhaps, moving forward from here is not a step taken without fear, but it is a step taken with the hope that something is more important than our fear.We move forward not in the apprehension of failure, but rather with the leading that once we jump with courage...we will be able to fly.