Wednesday July 25, 2012

River

I have spent this scorching Texas day hiding away in my house; scavenging through the boxes left over from my temporary move back home! After an awful 8 hour day...it is finally finished and here I am thinking about how the steps we take to keep our lives moving are so crucial to our well-being. For example, my father passed away in March. Yes, my family and I could live there. We could pretend every day was March 15th; or even wish we could live in the days before that. We could keep his closet untouched, and his office exactly the way it was when he left that morning. We could cling to every material possession he had until our knuckles became stained with blue and purple bruises. But instead, we have made keepsakes out of key staples of his life (a quilt out of old clothes; a book with his letters; his ties given my my little brother), and the rest of his things my mom so lovingly tucked away in a dresser in her room, closed the door... took a breath and looked forward. She made his office her craft room, and his closet storage. We didn't not do this to forget him...but rather because we refused to become stagnate in our loss; frozen from our shock; bitter from our pain. It's this act of keeping our lives moving forward, that keep us flowing...a flowing river. And that flowing river rushes into a vivid ocean, with sparkling waters and a golden sun, and a moonlit night. Moving forward; getting rid of what is useless; letting go of what was...these actions keep us from holding on to hollow things; hollow things that died long long ago. 

Want a full life?

 Keep it moving. Pause for a time, if necessary... but don't stand still, wasting away your life collecting dirt and mold, covering your radiant beauty until your hidden under the murk that you allowed. Don't stop moving froward because things aren't going your way; because your job isn't going the way you envisioned, because your divorced, because your boyfriend or girlfriend left you, because someone you  loved passed away, because you have cancer, because you are afraid, because you are angry, or insecure, or alone, or opposed....

Keep moving forward river...

Don't stay here for long

stand back up

brush the dirt off your shoulders

this is not where you belong.

Tuesday July 24, 2012

Quiet Night

A quiet night

one so still

I can hear the sky breathe. 

Friday July 13, 2012

"The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd.

 The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before."

- Albert Einstein

"Sonnet 116"

By: William Shakespeare

"Let me not to the marriage of true minds Admit impediments. Love is not love Which alters when it alteration finds, Or bends with the remover to remove: O no! it is an ever-fixed mark That looks on tempests and is never shaken; It is the star to every wand'ring bark, Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken. Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks Within his bending sickle's compass come; Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks, But bears it out even to the edge of doom: If this be error and upon me proved, I never writ, nor no man ever loved."

My thoughts:

Love does not abandon, it is not temporary , it does not fade.

If it abandons, if it weakens, if it begins to dissipate...it was never love to begin with.

Love; an evolving presence, stands the tests of time.

Ever changing, never weakening
 ever ours.  

Thursday July 5, 2012


I can't help but feel so thankful for the countless blessings of today! The bliss that comes from the smallest things in a moment, are those things which make my day extraordinary! It is the sunshine through the sheers that cover my window. It is in the sound of my mom's voice as she laughs. It is in the friends who have continuously made each day an raging adventure since the day I met them. (I think thats how I choose friends...those people who will leave me with no dull moment.) I am thankful for my youth, the excitement that comes with the world opening its arms to me; there is so much to learn, so much to discover, so much to delight in! I feel wild today; wildly free, wildly untamed, wildly gorgeous; wildly creative! I am so thankful, for every speck I see glitter in the sunlight, for every second I get to laugh, for the people who make me smile...and those special people who give me butterflies! I am so thankful for the opportunity to dream, and to experience the moment where reality and dreams come together for a miraculous kiss. That is where I sit today; bath suit on, sun shining... soaking in this gorgeous blue ocean of bliss and happiness...

Monday July 2, 2012

Veni, Vidi, Vici

I came, I saw, I conquered
By: (Me) Sawyer Buccy

There are those that say they understand me;
they believe they see me clearly.
Those people are fools.
For, not even I
see myself clearly yet.
But amongst those voices who try and define me by what they THINK they see...
I look into the river, that flows in front of me.
I look deep in to my reflection,
and see the warrior in me.
I see the fighter that rages against,
any light to die in me.
I see the woman that stands in strength into the face of life
and although it may be in my soul,
my enemy will find no fear in my eyes.

So Veni, Vidi, Vici
my heart knows no other way
I have come, I have seen, I will conquer
today, I will seize the day!