Wednesday May 30, 2012

" When my heart is overwhelmed

lead me to the Rock, that is higher than I."

Psalm 61: 2

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Monday May 28th, 2012
Where I sit


There is a place
where pain no longer rots the bones
where beauty has a place in the ashes
where venom is sucked out of wounds.

There is a place
where healing rests on your skin like rain drops
and happiness comes with the kiss of the sun
and memories turn sweet like the waft of a rose.

This place is poetry
where what is wrong in the world
becomes the pill we must swallow
the sacrifice that must be taken
in order to make things right.

As I write
words swallow what burns in me.

As I write
words accept whats broken in me

As I write
strength tears the weakness from me.

There is a place
its where I sit
where loss and love and wholeness mix.

Sunday May 27, 2012

We are running to what's broken to heal us;

searching for love where there is pain.

Lusting for the forbidden

but there is passion here we say...

in the place were love and lust

both feel the same. 

Saturday May 27, 2012

There are words in me.

Words I don't know where to find

or how to say

but I know they are there.

Just like you dad.

you are with me

And even though I don't know where to find you

or how to look

I know you are here.

Tuesday May 22, 2012
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Monday May 21, 2012
Ripple Effect
I haven't written in a while once again, but today is a new day. And this is a new week. And its time for things to change in me. I'm tired of settling for less than I can accomplish because I am afraid. I'm tired of not writing because I am afraid of failure. I'm tired of hiding in the shadows of others because I'm afraid of being myself. I'm tired of being afraid of judgment. Things will change today for me. I know we are all people hungry for healing..maybe that's why we make the choices that we do. Maybe that's why we run to anything that can make us feel- make us feel like we not only are important but that importance is tangible.No wonder we feel so empty...because our actions have no substance. To thine own self be true. Today I will start following my heart, listening to that little voice inside of me...the one I try so hard to swallow; when I know I should listen. Today, I will stop closing my eyes to the pain; the to consequences; to realities that I don't want to see, because today I realized I can use my life to make a much greater impact on this world- not so that people will remember me, but so that maybe, just maybe a difference can be made...one that never fades. The ripple effect. What if we are all living for less than we are created to live for? What if we are settling instead of stepping out in courage. What if being courageous, is exactly what the world needs from you? 

Wednesday May 9th, 2012

"Pick the day. Enjoy it - to the hilt. The day as it comes. People as they come... The past, I think, has helped me appreciate the present - and I don't want to spoil any of it by fretting about the future."
Audrey Hepburn



On Friday, I will be finished with my freshman year of college. Is it exiting? Yes! However, that excitement comes in whorls of bitter sweet expectation of the future. I reminisce on this year; as I walked into class, the first day, would I know that I would leave this place completely changed from the woman that I was? I have grown up... not completely, for I still have so much to learn and recognize my ignorance; but I have grown from who I was. I feel older. Its scary almost, that time is not a gentleman. He is not chival in any way. He runs forward, regardless of your pleads and cries for him to slow down. The sun rises and then it sets, and you become older with each hour, and time races on. 

 I think about the present; today; what I feel, what I will do the rest of the day. Then I think about the future- I get lost in my thoughts of the future. The past is what we have experienced, the present is what we know...but the future? The future is unknown; full of new experiences and events...that is what is frightening about the future...its mystery.

As we move forward it is so easy to stop, to freeze in fear of what lies around the corner...but this is the moment, the time, which separates the timid from the strong. Our entire lives have been building up to this point, this point of vulnerability, this point in which our world shifts and changes; in which we are given the chance to take opportunities which might change our lives. Life comes in winds like seasons. It is a book, whose pages are turned by a hand not our own. Chapters end, and others begin. Love is lost and love is gained. We experience joy and we mourn. Perhaps... perhaps, moving forward from here is not a step taken without fear, but it is a step taken with the hope that something is more important than our fear.We move forward not in the apprehension of failure, but rather with the leading that once we jump with courage...we will be able to fly.