New Blog

Announcement! I started this blog two years ago at a extremely transitional time. For that reason, my posts were from the heart but unorganized and all over the place! After months of planning I improved the idea of this blog but revamped the website and narrowed down on a specific theme.

The new address is: sawyerruth.wordpress.com

I hope you enjoy the new blog! 

Enjoying a Life of Beauty,

Sawyer 

My Love

When I read heart wrenching love stories...I think of you. 

I think that maybe our love has been the love

A storm has with the waves. 

Chaos. chaos. disaster. 

But oh, what a beautiful ruin we are. 

Fierce. 

Captivating... 

And merciless. 

My love for you is endless. 

Miles deep and oceans long.

You are beautiful to me. 

Last Night

This is love:A choice. 

Maybe

You tell me to believe

“Believe in what!?,” I think

but I smile at you anyways

and kiss your lips as filled with love as I can

the kind of kiss that only happens

when you know it might be the last.

You tell me to trust you

“trust you to do what!?,” I think

but I smile at you anyway

pretend I believe that you will stay this time

but in my mind

I am already watching you leave. 

I know how this will end:

with my broken heart 

and you with power

but I gamble anyway.

With hope in my heart that

maybe it will be different this time.

Maybe you will stay.

Maybe fate has dealt a new hand.

I watch the past repeat itself over and over again.

but still I think...

maybe. 

Lord,

I keep reading and thinking over these verses is Isaiah 62; where you completely restore, relentlessly pursue and passionately desire and then rename this town...this people. Jesus, the funny thing is that you call these people a 'her.' So naturally, I think of me and you. I think of how your desire for my heart is fierce and strong

" I will not keep silent nor remain quiet until her righteousness shines out like dawn, her salvation like a blazing torch (Isaiah 62: 1)." 

You will not relent, and I am so so thankful for that my sweet Jesus. I am so thankful for your pursuit of my heart, for just how you work. I am still in your presence Lord Jesus. 

But you don't end the story there...

Then you replace the heart of her memories. You replace the scar tissue from her past and make her heart soft again.

You stand before her as her mighty warrior

and you become her father.

You give her a new name

"No longer will they call her Deserted, or name her land Desolate. But she will be called Hephzibah (my delight is in her) (Isaiah 62:4)" 

then you become her lover 

"...and her land Beulah (married) (Isaiah 62:4)"

and you take delight in her

" As a young man pursues a maiden, as a bridegroom rejoices over his bride so will your God rejoice over you (Isaiah 62:5)." 

You completely restore hopeless situations. I am overwhelmed at your goodness. As I read those verses I knew I was reading about your heart...about my story...about your love. I have new name now...delighted in....

I am overwhelmed by your grace, and although I do not understand it

thank you God.

you make all things new

Sunday June 2, 2013

Ephesians 3: 16- 21

" I ask the Father in his great glory to give you the power to be strong inwardly through his Spirit. I pray that Christ will live in your hearts by faith and that your life will be strong IN love and built ON love. And I pray that you and all God's holy people will have the power to understand the greatness of Christ's love- how wide and how long and how high and how deep that love is. Christ's love is greater than anyone can ever know, but I pray that you will be able to know that love. Then you can be filled with the fullness of God."

I need Jesus. 

Like how the flowers need the sun 

like how the birds need the sky 

like how the wind needs the rain.

 I need Jesus 

like how a fire needs a match

 like how a boat needs the ocean

like how a child needs her tears.

 I need Jesus

 like how music needs a musicaian

 like how a woman needs love

like how a fish needs a river.

I need Jesus

like how I need air to breathe

like how I need sunshine to see

like I need love just to be me.

I need Jesus.

Josh Garrels
Sweet River Roll

May 29, 2013

I am proud to say I have graduated from Applied Life (my 9 month internship)! I am home now, and feel like I have been given a fresh start! The Lord has done such an amazing work in me, and thanks to Applied Life I have the foundation I need to move forward! I am thankful and exited and healed and ready to work hard to get where I know God has for me to be! If you have been praying, thank you- I have felt every one of your prayers. If you encouraged me to start blogging again... thank you, I needed the push;) If you have faithfully stuck by my side in all of this...thank you, you have blessed my life more than I have the words to thank you. If you have been a part of my life in any way good or bad, thank you; God has used those moments to teach me invaluable lessons. I am thankful for it all.

2 Corinthians 5:17

" If anyone belongs to Christ he (or she) is a new creation . The old things have gone; everything is made new." 

This scripture is my heart and soul right now:) It lets me taste just how deep and wide and vast and relentless my Saviors' love for me is. I am overwhelmed. It blows me away, has carried me when I could not move, chased me and pursued me, believed in me, felt my hurt, caught my tears, held me in lonely nights, rejoiced with me when the morning came, fought with me all this way, has gone before me to prepare the way but stays beside me at this very moment. My God holds my heart and the stars in the same hand. He is the maker of the heavens and earth but longs for our love. My God has made all things new. My past is gone, his grace and mercy have washed me, and here I am made right with him- a new creation. 

The power of this and really any scripture is our faith to believe it. We cannot merely read the word, we must believe with every ounce of our being that what God is promising us is truly ours. Because it is. That's when he can begin to truly move, when he has a willing heart expecting him to speak. He is good. It's always like springtime with him:)